Haiz... Haiz... Haiz....

Firstly, if you guys are wondering watever happened to the sneaky sneak preview for April, well, i wont be doing it for this month..... One is bcos there isn much albums coming out yet so far, not that i know of..... Then there is the part where i am pretty busy with my life as well, with the sch stuffx, and getting ready for school, the plans and all sorts.....

To some, sighx, u peeps know, i have been down, depressed, discourage and not well..... i was not fine at all, and i am not fine yet either..... But, thankfully, i am much better than on Monday.....

Certain plans crumbled and I literally broke down as well..... I had to talk with different close frens of mine.... Gwen was around, so was HuiYee in Australia, and Eugene in Canada as well..... I just spend-time with Stefanie.... And on Fri i will be spending time with Joyce... which i will look forward to hear her advice and all.....

Basically, now, i am not hoping for alot of things, neither am i planning anything.... I am just like a sponge now... absorbing wat ppl say and think and advise..... I dont wanna put my hopes up high in case i fall even harder......

I dont even have the energy at times to smile from the bottom of my heart, or even give to the ppl around me who need my support and encouragement in other areas..... I know i may sound selfish, but i totally have no energy..... i am just exhausted, and tired and i WANNA be REAL to myself... if i can do it, i will, if i cant, then Celia, let it go.......

Well, it is time for me to move on, and leave the things behind..... watever that comes my way, i will try to think things thru clearer if it is for the best..... If not, it doesn really matter...... =)

I wanna thank the peeps that were there for me, in times of depressing moments..... And i appreciate them for being there to listen and just be there for me...... Assuring me that things will go well, and that as long as i tried my best, i have to leave the rest to God who is always in control.......

Lastly, with God, all things is possible, and that, it is time for me to learn to trust God more than anything in the world...... =)

Thanks guys and i Love you all.... very very much.....

DJ Out~!