Term Test Week....

Ok... this coming weeks has been busy with sch sch and sch.... cos term test is next week.... Got back my quizzes paper back last week..... And well, din do as well as i expected, cos i kinda expect to get FULL marks..... There are 2 that i manage to pass NOT So Well.... but well then again, i am contented..... Got a few As, and some not so good..... but well.... I am still gonna reward myself....

Tmr, getting the HP~!!! Yeay~! heex.... was waiting for it ALL week..... Thank God the week went by fast and suddenly, we are in the weekends...... Nokia 6500 Here i COME~! heex.... =)

Sometimes i wanna let ppl know how my mindset is like abt going back to sch after so long..... I always feel the pressure from different ppl.... Like how i finished my A levels but i am competing with the fresh O level grads.... So everyone kinda expect you to be smarter than the rest and those excuses..... Then there are some who will tend to compare me with the previous A Level student.... Like in the midst of busyness I can still manage to do certain things.....

When the pressure is on, I just cant help it but try not to get annoyed at them..... That is wat i do best isn it? Accepting ppl and not myself.....

BUT I wanna say, I come into this course, with the mindset of going in to learn, back to square 1.... I dont boast abt that I took A level once so I am smarter than anyone else..... Bcos, frankly, I am not smarter than them.... After the quiz results, I realise it isn that easy getting the top ten percent..... which i am so trying hard to get so that I can achieve the scholarship later on, which i really need.....

I am already at the losing ends than the peers i am with..... They get to go home after sch to study, where i had to go for work..... then of cos, they are fresh grads from O levels, where I had stopped sch for 3 yrs b4 starting it again..... brain is kinda slow to everything at times..... lastly of cos, i am not a smart person.... I am just diligent.... and my brain isn good to multi task at all......

There are ppl who wish they are as smart as me, esp in this recent months.... bcos i listen in lectures and can get the facts right there and then.... but i learn this lesson the hard way as well.... so i am not giving up just bcos of ppl's comments and thots..... Sighx...

Ppl do have a way of putting thots into ur brain.... they may think like, i will sure pass, i will sure do well, i will sure get into the top ten, after all, i did my A levels..... Pls try not to over-estimate me, cos I myself aint doing that.... quizzes and test may be something light to u peeps, but to me, i take my utmost seriousness to accomplish and study for it......

It takes 2 to believe.... and i am glad to have a fren to listen when i had no one on my back supporting my decisions in certain things..... Glad to have you called in once in a while to check things out.... but no worries, i am good at putting all these pressures behind to motivate me to even strive harder..... =)

Okies, i have to get back to studying.... wrote a long one tonite, cos i am not sure when i am going to write in again.... maybe when hols starts~! heeheehee.... Cant WAIT!~

Love yea (peeps) always~! =) Thanks for being there for me.....

DJ Out~!