I am so packed....

Well, i was wondering if my last entry was on starting school... But after one month and a half of torturous life in school, it is the hols again.... BUT... not so much of any holidays..... I will be so packed within these 2 weeks....

Luckily, for me, I will be flying off to Jkt on Tuesday.... till Friday.... i hope i can enjoy some time off just not thinking abt anything.... BECAUSE, when i come back, it will be back to life from hell....

When i come back, i have to rush a 12-page report out on Saturday, Sunday, i have to do my FI log book, Monday, it is an SHF event in the morning, then followed by my PR application at 4pm... Tuesday, i will be back in sch whole day to finish a project, then Wed, it is another project at my place.... Thursday is another SHF event.... then Friday, i have to clear all my tutorials and assignements and apply for my cluster selection, then Saturday and Sunday whole day will be my HME event.... GOSH... talk about packed canned sardine, i feel like one myself.....

Cluster selection.... I have decided to take the 2nd one.... From the assurance of my care-person, she realy cares, saying that cluster 2 would be a better choice.... My biggest worries would be PBPN, stands for principles of biochemistry and physiology for nutrition... SEE??? even the name is long enough to kill.... I heard it isn the easiest subject for dietics.... but well, i am going to give it a try.....

So much for a 2 week break right? it is more like time to rush ur projects.... Well, i have been listening to this song in Tank's newest album that lifts my spirit up.... even after my papers.... which reminds me, Ok, we haven even talked much about our paper..... So far of all 4 papers, NLS will be the worse, I THINK.... cos u have no idea how difficult it is and i have no idea what they really want from it.... It isn about me not preparing well for it.... I'm always prepared for my papers.... but this time, i have no idea what the qn wants?!?~!? well, just hope i PASS.... which means a D grade is fine by me.... from a Z to a D.... look how far it went.... skipped almost 20 alphabets....

going back to the song, well, i mean, Tank, came back, after 2 yrs, and his heart surgery.... think it was really awesome of him to come out with one album, relating them to how his life has been thru these 2 yrs.... posting one of the lyrics here.... =)

Ok, today is my only BREAK so far... hahahahax....

Tank--會長大的幸福

在 夜市裡逛地攤 送妳一副耳環
妳很喜歡 一整晚笑聲不斷

陪 妳看電影哭完 戲裡相愛好難
妳很感慨 現實會害人離散

妳說浪漫 和貧富無關
是心讓愛燦爛
在捷運車站 不在乎圍觀
感動親吻起來

要妳擁有會長大的幸福
一天比一天像公主 夢都被滿足
為妳種下會長大的幸福
讓今天擔心妳的朋友 明天笑鬧著 嫉妒

為 妳生日的夜晚 親手料理晚餐
妳真可愛 很捧場吃兩碗飯

妳 電話有點摔壞 一直想幫妳換
努力加班 妳心疼得淚打轉

愛是送妳會長大的幸福
用生命為妳變魔術 永遠被保護
牽手圍住會長大的幸福
看它開花結果變大樹 我們唱著歌 歡呼

DJ out~! =)

Happy Birthday To ME!

Wow~! Another yr older.... think i am just grateful that i can live so long le.... lolx.... Bot so much of very excited over the birthday thing.... lolx... cos it means i am another yr older... Dreads...

I think i have learnt to be careful for what i wish for, cos after putting the water bottle request, I had 3 now..... 2 of it are the same, just different colours.....

But well, i am glad to have frens who cares.... =) hee....

Very grateful, for all the frens and family.... very grateful to God.... for always providing my needs... and keeping my needs met.... think this is something tat i am always aware... Like if i wanted something, i am always able to get it one way or another..... it might not be immediate, but at least at the end of it, i can still afford..... Or i got it thru different means.... not stealing of cos.... lolx.....

Very happy with my life now i suppose.... i cant ask for a better moment.... i mean, there are ups and downs, but i have people around me to take care of me.... =)

Sch is awesome..... just cant wait to finish yr 2 quickly so i can do attachments at hospitals..... and hopefully, i can get the scholarship to study overseas...... tt will be my bday wish..... it is the first tt i thot of.... although, i am not so much of a wish person..... =)

I am glad to continue to build more frenship.... widen social circle, and definitely to use the blessings that i get to give to others in need.... =)

Alrite... thats my speech.... lolx......

Take care and thank you guys lots for everything you have done.... even just being a part of my life is SOMEHTING i wanna thank you guys for.....

Love yea always and God bless.... =)

DJ Out~!

Birthday Wish List...

Only just today, someone complimented me that I look like a 15-yr old.... So amazed and grateful and gosh, just really elated to hear such a comment.... I mean, as a girl, woman, WHO DONT WANT TO BE COMMENTED AS YOUNG~! Forever 18 kinda thing..... Sighx....

Anyways, thinking about my bday that is coming SOON, and for the benefit of my close frens, posting up a wish list would be good.... So no unnecessary things will be given to me.... At this age, when you receive something you dont use, u will probably throw it to the back of your closet and leave it till it rust n mould....

Ok, let me see.... I wanted a few things..... Let's start with:

• Cineleisure bag ( the bag that looked like Ketupat )
• Bedsheets ( Hopefully can get nice looking ones and comfy)
• A good water bottle ( that doesn LEAK )
• A good pair of swimming goggles - with 0.3 degree ( that doesn SMOKE when i swim)
• Pilot ball-point stationeries ( who LACKS them )
  
• 80L Oven from Taka going at 90 bucks ( is this too much )
• Dryer ( i think i am going overboard )
• Portable Aircon ( i promise i will END here )
• Any amount of ANG POW ( who LACKS CASH??? )
  

Ok... Not too much of a request... I think the first few are priorities.... And things i need, if not, when i have the budget, i will go get them myself.... hahahahahahx....

Hope and pray i will have a good Bday celebration~! gosh.....Cant wait.....

DJ Out~!

勇敢 Brave

Being brave would be my biggest strength and biggest weakness.... depending on the situation i guess..... I can be brave and face up to challenges.... but i have times where i kinda regretted the things i do or said, esp after reflecting.... and brave will definitely be not in my dictionary then....

After 3 days of conference.... It was REALLY recharging... hearing so many lessons and so many to change~!!!! lolx.... Humility..... Rejoicing and being blessed....... It was Awesome~!!!!

Think wanna just post this lyrics.... bcos we can always be brave when we have ppl around us to walk us thru the tough times.... =) So yup.... 加油~!

Will be a full week this week.... Let's see.... i still have my usual tuitions.... addition of one more now every Saturdays.... and this week, i will have to distribute flyers as well~!!!! well, just a day.... to earn some extra cash b4 sch starts to work on my NEW wardrobe.... gosh, i REALLY need NEW CLOTHES~!!!!!!

Hope everything will go SMOOTHLY~! Make it work Celia~! =)

日夜顛倒 夢和現實 對調
誰能帶我 飛躍幸福 遠方
閉上雙眼 用心感應 彷彿聽得到
是你為我 留下的暗號

當我 緊握你的手
你是耀眼的星火
就讓夢想編織王者世界
照亮整個宇宙

當你 握緊我的手
我變勇敢的星火
和你一起閃耀 到世界盡頭

放棄太早 和你約好 跟時間賽跑
用愛破解 最後的詛咒

DJ Out~!

Loves....

And we're back~! =)

Hmm... It is simple... Life comes to a turn, we just suddenly don see eye to eye.... so a quarrel began, followed by a cold war, and then, we realised we were just being silly.... lolx....

Then someone stepped forward to apologize, and everything seems back to the way it was..... It is bcos either of us just missed the other one.... everything seems to come in a pair anyways.... hee....

Think sometimes, it takes a temporary losing, to realise what we have lost..... just dont wait until we completely lost that someone forever to finally realise how important that person is to us..... =)

Kelly Clarkson-My Life would suck without you

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go

DJ Out~!

Another Cry Moments....

Hmm... Maybe bcos of hormonal changes... lolx... but yesterday seems like my worse nite.... I couldn control how i felt.... i was calm, but my mind was whirling like a roller coaster.... and this morning, "great-aunt" came.... then i realised maybe, just maybe i was thinking way out of hand..... let my emotions run wild....

Tonite, i did some reflections, and clarify things, and thankfully, i wasn in the wrong.... Sighx.... This isn the first time it happened.... and it happened many times... sometimes, i felt like i am a different person when i am around with different people..... but in general, i am a conflict avoider.....

I wont know how to handle such situations, thus i rather take it to myself.... i felt, i think as long as i am clear of my own conscience, i shd be fine.... sighx.... dont really wanna talk about it..... and i seriously dont wanna think abt it.....

But the fact that most ppl i talked to for clarifications said i wasn in the wrong, then i felt like i wanted to express it out once and for all... that i am resting my case..... It isn that i wasn paying attn, or that I wasn flexible in my scheduling... I am definitely very particular abt wat i belief in and i hate last min changes or turning ppl down... i try to always do what i say.... and all these i do bcos i dont wanna be ever like my parents if possible.....

There are things ppl say abt me.... that arent true.... and sometimes, fighting for it is one thing, but the more u try to clarify, the more they think u are making excuses for urself... plus i really dont like to fight over something, esp with ppl that dont speak fluently in english in the first place..... Wat's the point in fighting over it? there is already a language barrier over it..... let alone the objective.....

Well... since i don do confronting.... i said it all in general.... I am neither talking abt a specific grp of ppl, nor pin-pointing a specific person..... so yeap..... =)

Alrite, doesn really matter now..... Going back to lyrics posting.....

On Sunday, i heard this song by Lifehouse-Everything... i felt like it was a nice song....

Find me here
Speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you

You are the light, that's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
you're everything, everything.

I remember, my own criteria to choosing my best frens.... or basically frens itself.... and i felt like it will be openess.... how open i can share things with them without any fear of rejection but getting the support..... as well as how much i can rely so much on them emotionally..... =)

DJ out~! =)

So long never write in....

Omg... The last entry was like MONTHS ago....

The whole term came n went.... Exams came and went.... Results came and went.... Holidays came and half gone already.... Projects almost all done....

Time flies.... 2 more weeks before yr 2 starts.... Cant wait.....

Results came out and GPA dropped.... Alot of things happened in the first quarter of the yr itself.... And now... more trials came our way..... I was as broke as nothing.... now not as bad..... hopefully, next time will be better....

Well, I have been listening to the recent albums.... and I like Kelly Clarksons Cry especially.... I think i can relate at times.... pretend to be ok and act ask if nothing is wrong.... that sentence is like REALLY me..... I am pretty much good at that.....

When results came out, i told myself i was ok.... alot of ppl told me i did well, couldn have done better, but the only person tt knows whether i did my best, well, can only be myself.... and frankly, i didn try my best.... there were times i totally slack off..... i am SERIOUS.....

Times when i just felt, aiyahx, just submit and watever lahx.... as long as it is submitted..... so many times, the mindset is like tt.... submit online, doesn matter the marks.... and obviously, i wasn satisfied.... NOT at all..... and i deserved it now..... cant get over it..... and i have to only tell myself to pull it up higher next sem..... =(

I didn cry even when i wanted to.... i was just really disappointed with myself.... but my pride took hold of the better of me.... so i wasn allowed to cry.... until of cos to a point where i couldn take it and cried it all out that i finally felt much much better....

I think the next test would be the electives.... cos at this crossroad, i have no idea wat i want.... the practical way? or risk it all again? i had enuf of risk and not knowing wat the future holds.... i am v afraid of that i can say as much as i am v afraid of pain.....

Some say take wat u are passionate abt.... some say, take the practical way.... at this point, i have no idea.... initially, i thot i could use the results to decide, see which one i do better in, then can go which way.... but i realise, BOTH got disticntion.... then now wat??? sighx..... God always has a way of dealing with us...... =(

Well, i will take a step at the time... in the mean time, the next 2 weeks, it will be just trying to work out as much as i can and get a good tan to start afresh this new term..... as well as not slack so much tt i cant get the momentum back when sch starts..... so... Cry going out to u guys.... =)

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you
I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care if they believe me or not
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong

I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away

DJ Out~!

=) YR 2 here i come~!

Happy Chinese New Year

Wow wow wow.... Time flies.... i actually intended to write this blog in China while i was still there.... But i am oredi back and busy with sch.....

Went to HK on the 21st of Jan for the CNY vacation.... and was back on the 28th from Shenzhen....

Had quite alot of shopping to do, but din manage to get all done.... it is ok still, but well, still felt abit unsatisfied... lolx....

Spent time with different ppl which is good and refreshing.... i totally felt like time really flies.... i remember last yr when i was getting ready to come back.... now i am back there and here again..... whew..... weird feeling but i know next yr will be even faster....

went to Ikea with my sis and dad, and had a crazy fun time there.... lolx.... and the rest of the days flew by even without me knowing....

The next thing i know, i had to be back here to prepare for all my tests...... Just ended everything, that is why have the time......

another thing tt hit me most while i was there was that it was really cold.... i went to HK and it was like 20deg, then when i reach GZ, it was 16deg... the next day, it was 10deg.... and the following few days was colder cos it rained...... WINTER RAIN..... gosh it was like FREEZING.... i totaly caught the flu bug when i reach home..... until like NOW.....

Sch is gonna get real busy cos the syllabus have ended and it is time for FINAL SEM exams~! pretty stress abt it.... cos frankly.... i have studied n done my best, but i know i can try harder.....

So hope the following few weeks will go smoothly.... esp with the project interviews and presentations...... All the best for me~!

Happy Chinese new year once more and have a great awesome yr ahead~!

DJ out~!

Happy New Year 2009~!

Took time off my revision to fill in a post... Firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009~!!!! =) Time really flies... lolx... seems to always mention this sentence in every post.... lolx... But seriously, i can remember 1st of Jan 2008, i was hoping time could freeze just to that day.... but we've moved on and now i am oredi back in Spore studying hard... lolx...

Ok, moving on to my new Yr resolution, wow... it is like ages since i wrote a resolution list....

1. Build up more relationship with people, cos i am always going by the assuming similarity Bias... so i tend to flock with the pl who are similar to me.... clique-y.... I wanna improve the relationship with the different people who are opposites of my character and learn to accept them as who they are....

2. To be less defensive... I cant help it but, i am educated this way since young, to be independent and self-reliant.... so sometimes i know i can turn ppl down and think tt i am superior or capable of doing things.... worse of all, i dont really like gals who act weak or are weak.... i mean, women must learn to take care of themselves and not rely on guys all the time, but i suppose i must learn as well, to always give guys a chance to perform and show out their MAN-ness....

3. Not to be results oriented... Ever since i came back, i am just burying myself in BOOKS and no FUN.... always affected easily if ppl do better than me in test and exams... SO, i wanna wash my hands off these political ways and not bother who get how much.... as long as i am satisfied with my marks, which is getting an A, i shd be peace with myself... after all, u cant forever be at the TOP.... there will always be ppl smarter than u.... so deal with it and be at PEACE

4. Patience??? Well, i am patient abt certain things, and sometimes VERY impatient abt others... So hopefully this yr can strike a balance and learn that things take time to evolve... after all, God took 7 days to create the world... and i took 9 months to be created.... so BE PATIENT~! COS EVERYTHING TAKES TIME.... Time is usually not a best fren of mine, i mean, sometimes i really do complain tt 24 hrs is not enough.... esp this week, with the project due.... sianx....

5. Exercise~! Well, since i am such a homey person, and the swimming pool is just like opp my house, i shd really just go there at least once a week to work it out.... and well.... dont coop myself at home ALL DAY.... which is like my fav hobby.... make that 2 now.... Swim and stay at home..... lolx....

Ok, these are the resolutions....

As for now, i am just waiting for CNY to come.... i will be in HK on Wed 21st Jan, then 22nd to 28th will be in GZ.... so many tests to prepare by then.... and i am so GLAD my tcher approved my Leave of Absence...... THANK GOD..... hopefully, i will finish my projs by then, FC and psych, as well as prepare for the 3 Quizzes.... BMic, FC and Math.... also a small CSAS test..... =)

加油 加油 加油~!!!!!!

Ok peeps... time to go.... i have taken enuf break....

DJ OUT~!