So long never write in....
Omg... The last entry was like MONTHS ago....
The whole term came n went.... Exams came and went.... Results came and went.... Holidays came and half gone already.... Projects almost all done....
Time flies.... 2 more weeks before yr 2 starts.... Cant wait.....
Results came out and GPA dropped.... Alot of things happened in the first quarter of the yr itself.... And now... more trials came our way..... I was as broke as nothing.... now not as bad..... hopefully, next time will be better....
Well, I have been listening to the recent albums.... and I like Kelly Clarksons Cry especially.... I think i can relate at times.... pretend to be ok and act ask if nothing is wrong.... that sentence is like REALLY me..... I am pretty much good at that.....
When results came out, i told myself i was ok.... alot of ppl told me i did well, couldn have done better, but the only person tt knows whether i did my best, well, can only be myself.... and frankly, i didn try my best.... there were times i totally slack off..... i am SERIOUS.....
Times when i just felt, aiyahx, just submit and watever lahx.... as long as it is submitted..... so many times, the mindset is like tt.... submit online, doesn matter the marks.... and obviously, i wasn satisfied.... NOT at all..... and i deserved it now..... cant get over it..... and i have to only tell myself to pull it up higher next sem..... =(
I didn cry even when i wanted to.... i was just really disappointed with myself.... but my pride took hold of the better of me.... so i wasn allowed to cry.... until of cos to a point where i couldn take it and cried it all out that i finally felt much much better....
I think the next test would be the electives.... cos at this crossroad, i have no idea wat i want.... the practical way? or risk it all again? i had enuf of risk and not knowing wat the future holds.... i am v afraid of that i can say as much as i am v afraid of pain.....
Some say take wat u are passionate abt.... some say, take the practical way.... at this point, i have no idea.... initially, i thot i could use the results to decide, see which one i do better in, then can go which way.... but i realise, BOTH got disticntion.... then now wat??? sighx..... God always has a way of dealing with us...... =(
Well, i will take a step at the time... in the mean time, the next 2 weeks, it will be just trying to work out as much as i can and get a good tan to start afresh this new term..... as well as not slack so much tt i cant get the momentum back when sch starts..... so... Cry going out to u guys.... =)
If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk
Whenever I see you
I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
Is it over yet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry
If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah what do I care if they believe me or not
Whenever I feel your memory is breaking my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong
I'm talking in circles
I'm lying, they know it
Why won't this just all go away
DJ Out~!
=) YR 2 here i come~!
